Discussion about this post

User's avatar
John's avatar

I was sent here to read this by my psychologist. I sought him out for some advice, about whether or not I was being unreasonable in my romantic relationship. I've been a human polygraph for the last 25+ years. I first remember having to pretend I didn't know what was going on in order to avoid conflict, when I was 10. Somewhere in my mid-twenties, I realized I had a gift that I couldn't explain, and started trying to figure out what the mechanism was that made me different. I had an abnormally good heart, in terms of blood pressure, resting heart rate, and cardio ability, so I thought maybe it was an interaction of the magnetic fields produced by our hearts. The heart, acting as a transceiver, with mine being physically more powerful. Regardless of whether my theory was correct, it didn't take me long to come to the conclusion that always knowing when you're being lied to, is very painful. I know everyone in my life better than they want to know themselves, and some of them hate me for it. My father suffered daily agony in his back and leg for 20 years, until I told him he had a pain syndrome and essentially hypnotized him out of it. He's been pain free for almost a decade, though we no longer speak. They feel exposed. And I don't know how Jung picked up on the fact that people would project themselves onto me, but that's ever present, and often to an outrageous degree. I am incredibly isolated, though reading all of this has given me hope that I may be able to find contentment. Despite all of this, if I could snap my fingers and have it go away, I'd say no and keep my curse.

Expand full comment
Susan OBrien's avatar

Seeing more wisely is a useful suggestion.

Expand full comment
5 more comments...

No posts